Monday, 9 January 2017

It's perfectly normal, just try not to worry...

Yeah sure! Not helpful when you’re feeling worried.

Had a bit of a meltdown at the weekend, I woke up in the middle of the night and was suddenly overwhelmed with Anxiety. I burst into tears and my husband had to stay up with me and calm me down, I suppose it’s his job and I’m lucky to have such a supportive husband.

I’m usually a rational person, I swear!!

This morning I think I almost gave him a heart attack calling him about a pain that I had which I had never had before and it wouldn’t go away, it happened during a Braxton contraction which was a bit scary, naturally I thought I was going into labour.

So I had so many things going around in my head and it all accumulated at 2am on saturday night,  it’s impossible not to worry about these things. I did speak to my husband about some of these and here’s a couple of examples. I’m just using this as blogging therapy!

  • Will the baby be early? My husband was 6 weeks premature and so with 6 weeks to go I’m panicking at every twinge!
  •  Will the baby be late? I’m off work three weeks before the baby comes and I’ll be eating all the spicy food and pineapple I can get my hands on.
  • Will I cope with the pain? I’d like to avoid the drugs as much as possible, just because I don’t like the sound of the ones that go into the baby’s bloodstream. I don’t feel like I have a very high pain threshold so I’m quite nervous. We start our NCT classes this week so hopefully I’ll have a better idea about pain relief once those are done.
  • How will I deliver?
  • Will I need a lot of stitches?
  • Will I poo? yep! most likely!!
  • Will I cope with the baby crying all the time? How much will it actually cry? A pregnant friend at work said they feed about 8 times a day?! I mean what the hell!?
  • Will I cope on less sleep, at the moment I sleep around 10 hours a night so it’s going to be hard to adjust.
  • Will I be able to breastfeed? Breast is best – so everyone keeps saying (and nagging about) but it doesn’t work for everyone and it might not work out?!

So it turns out he’s just as nervous as me, I’m not alone. I just need to remember that, remember it’s ok and totally normal to be nervous, scared, anxious, let’s face it, totally sh$tting ourselves!

Anyone else going through the same thing but too embarrassed to tell anyone?

I washed the baby clothes this weekend. Check out these teeny joggers!!!!

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